Hugs

I recently read an article about the value of hugs – lower blood pressure, stress relief, emotional comfort and more.  Although I’ve looked for it again, I cannot find that specific article, but merely Googling a phrase related to the benefits of hugging will bring up hundreds of them. An Irish folk singer, Ben Sands, […]

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Life After Loss

Today is the last day of what has been an extremely challenging year.  It marks 259 days since my husband drew his last breath, and 273 days since we last heard his voice.  It seems somewhat fitting to write this, my final post this year, and my 100th post since I started, on the final […]

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My Scar-Filled Heart

Today marks what would have been A’s 51st birthday, our 32nd spent together.  (It would have been our 33rd had it not been for a trip to London with my then 15 y.o. daughter and her friend about 8 years ago.)  I knew this day was looming and have been trying to prepare myself, yet […]

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The Road Less Traveled

I finally did it! Those of you who know me well (or even reasonably so) know that my husband and I would take frequent walks.  We were fortunately able to do so on an almost daily basis, as I worked from home, as technically did he. What started out as simply a way to simply […]

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Where Love Grows

Ever since my recent major meltdown, I had been doing fairly well.  As you likely know, this is a relative term, and applies to my “new normal”.  (I believe I’ve mentioned this before, but I really dislike that expression.  I was quite content with my “old normal” and never asked for an updated version.) But […]

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The Long, Lonely Journey

Every loss is felt distinctly.  Each person we lose in our lives affects us differently.  Every grief is experienced in a unique way.  To compare and judge one person’s pain against another’s is unfair.  That being said, losing my husband has been by far the most difficult loss I’ve ever experienced.  Am still experiencing on […]

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Broken

Yesterday I broke. Although I have been broken for quite some time, yesterday was a complete breakdown.  The whys and hows don’t really matter, just suffice to say that a fairly minor (in the grand scheme of things) event occurred.  Another headache I don’t need, another expense I can’t afford which caused a major meltdown […]

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