Pardon the Mess

If this is your first visit here, welcome to my crazy.  If you are returning, thank you.  In either case, please share this site with someone who may find some comfort from one who has been there. After the sudden death of my 50 y.o. high-school sweetheart husband from undiagnosed heart disease, I became an […]

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Leprechauns, Lobstah Rolls and Laughter

I recently traveled to Maine for an annual girl’s weekend that has been happening since 1984, I believe.  What initially began as my grandmother, aunts, and some friends deciding that a weekend at the beach was just what the doctor ordered, it has morphed into what can only be considered a fairly significant event involving […]

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Naked Truth

I looked at myself naked in my bathroom mirror the other day. Really looked at myself. And, in some ways, it’s as if I’m seeing myself for the very first time. Have my boobs always looked like that, or have even they changed since A’s death?  They just look different to me somehow.  Are they […]

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Two Truths and a Lie (Or The Non-Hitchless Wedding)

My daughter got married this weekend.  Everything went off without a hitch.  It was absolutely beautiful!  Just kidding.  There were hitches nearly everywhere!  That was my lie. But in the end, the wedding was absolutely beautiful.  I’d like to say it was a bright, sunny day, but it was more overcast than anything, although that […]

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Dear A, I Miss You

Dear A: Today marks 15 months since you left.  I know you didn’t leave the kids and me because you wanted to, but knowing that doesn’t make it any easier on us all. Yes, I’ve gotten better.  We all have.  We’re learning how to wander around the empty space in our lives that your leaving […]

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Childlike Behavior

I spent this past holiday weekend at my oldest daughter’s apartment two hours from home spending time with her and her fiancé, going over some last minute wedding details, and trying to add at least a little bit of color to this pathetically pale Floridian. So one day, while my daughter was working and my […]

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Back to Life in Year Two

[My apologies for being derelict in posting for a few weeks.  We are in the home stretch for our oldest daughter’s wedding in July, and last minute preparations, as well as June being a difficult month in general with our wedding anniversary and Father’s Day has left me with little time to spare.  I hope […]

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