Settling In

I’m back in that weird place again.  Just when I thought I was turning another corner, there’s a new roadblock in my way.  I’ve been feeling A’s loss again rather profoundly the past week or so, despite having a bit of a respite for awhile.  Although his absence is always felt, it seems that it […]

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Dear A, I Miss You

Dear A: Today marks 15 months since you left.  I know you didn’t leave the kids and me because you wanted to, but knowing that doesn’t make it any easier on us all. Yes, I’ve gotten better.  We all have.  We’re learning how to wander around the empty space in our lives that your leaving […]

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Fighting for Love

A random string of memories popped up today, and not exactly the “best” ones.   I’m not entirely sure why they decided to rear their heads, although possibly, they may have come from hearing Leona Lewis’ Bleeding Love and specifically the lyrics: “Trying hard not to hear, but they talk so loud.   Their piercing sounds […]

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Island Retreat

A few days ago marked one year since my husband passed away, and my grown children and I, along with their significant others, got away for a few days to one of his favorite spots in Florida. I’ve heard this one-year point called every thing from “death anniversary” to “angelversary” to, as one crazy widow […]

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Unsteady

Years ago, I had an “incident” with a fun house barrel.  A and I, along with my brother, his wife, and their two boys, had taken our girls to a local fair (years before our son was born or even thought about).  The small town agricultural fair is pretty much tradition for anyone who grew up […]

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Conversation by the Sea

It was exactly one year ago today that I sat on the beach with my husband on a Sunday afternoon discussing the steps necessary for him to get a business started.  After pursuing a career in golf for several years, he had decided it might be time to think about earning a steady income again. […]

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Let’s Talk

It’s Saturday night as I write this, and I’ve only just gotten home a short while ago after a pleasant dinner with a couple from back “home”.  I went to school with the husband, and already felt as though I knew his wife through her Facebook posts, although we’ve only crossed paths a couple of […]

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