Things I Miss

Each day that passes brings me further from the only life I knew.  And the only man I wanted to spend it with.  On my way to work this morning, I started thinking about all the things I missed from that life. Some of the things are simple, some are silly, and some are quite […]

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Waiting for the Fog to Lift

One of the most unexpected things about grieving the loss of my husband is how much energy it seems to expend. All my actions and thoughts seem to be much more difficult than they were back in March, and I become physically and mentally exhausted from the smallest efforts. My world has become blanketed with […]

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Our Protector

I’ve avoided posting anything for several days now, mainly because I’m not sure what to say that I haven’t already said many times in various ways.  It all boils down to the fact that I really miss my husband and I’m sad, and angry, and hollow knowing I’ll always miss him and there’s nothing I […]

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Beauty in Motion

Three months.  That doesn’t seem like too long, does it?  But when your world has been turned inside out and upside down and chaos has become normal, three months seems a lifetime.  On the other hand, no time at all.  I spend so much time in a fog that hours and days simply slip away […]

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Unwanted Guest

During a recent conversation, my daughter told me that many of my recent postings were too dark and depressing, and she asked me lovingly to “knock it off”.  It bothers her to know I am so sad.  Initially, I thought she was right.  Perhaps I needed to balance out the darkness with more light. Then […]

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