Waiting for the Fog to Lift

One of the most unexpected things about grieving the loss of my husband is how much energy it seems to expend. All my actions and thoughts seem to be much more difficult than they were back in March, and I become physically and mentally exhausted from the smallest efforts. My world has become blanketed with […]

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It Ain’t Easy Being Green

One of the things I’ve realized in the past few months is how much I took for granted in the previous 32 years.  Having fallen in love at such a young age meant that I was one-half of a couple before I ever truly understood (and appreciated) how unusual (and wonderful) it was. Through the […]

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The Real A (Part II)

As a continuation of my previous post attempting to let people get a glimpse inside of who my husband really was, today I’m going to talk about that side of him that initially caused my cousin to remark she “never knew that about him” and which started this whole series in the first place.  Music […]

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The Real A (Part I)

My husband was a rather private man.  Despite being charming and well-liked by most people, he was still quite an enigma.  A recent conversation with my cousin (yes, that one, the one who dropped everything to rush more than 1,000 miles away to ensure I was OK when A was hospitalized) made me realize how little […]

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Our Protector

I’ve avoided posting anything for several days now, mainly because I’m not sure what to say that I haven’t already said many times in various ways.  It all boils down to the fact that I really miss my husband and I’m sad, and angry, and hollow knowing I’ll always miss him and there’s nothing I […]

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Nice Ring to It

When my husband proposed to me, he did it with a beautiful round cut diamond just under a carat.  After wearing a “promise ring” for several years prior that was little more than a diamond chip (with a running joke that it was his promise to buy a better ring), my engagement ring looked enormous […]

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Groundhog Day

This week, I’ve had several conversations with different individuals each essentially inquiring where I am in my journey of healing, and, like I tend to do often, I’ve mulled over my replies long after the conversations are through.  While truthful, at least to a certain extent, my responses don’t tell the whole story; it’s really […]

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