Downward Slope

I’ve been stuck in a bit of a weird place this last week or so (even stranger than the place I’ve been in for nearly the past year).  You see, the one year mark is looming, not only for A’s passing in mid-April, but also for his heart attack at the beginning of the month. […]

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The Road Less Traveled

I finally did it! Those of you who know me well (or even reasonably so) know that my husband and I would take frequent walks.  We were fortunately able to do so on an almost daily basis, as I worked from home, as technically did he. What started out as simply a way to simply […]

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Full Circle

This past weekend was an emotionally charged one, with my birthday, the Homecoming Dance, my son’s 18th birthday and the 6-month mark from my husband’s passing coming in rapid succession.  Although I’m in a better place to deal with this than I would have been earlier this year, it was still challenging. I spent quite […]

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Waiting for the Fog to Lift

One of the most unexpected things about grieving the loss of my husband is how much energy it seems to expend. All my actions and thoughts seem to be much more difficult than they were back in March, and I become physically and mentally exhausted from the smallest efforts. My world has become blanketed with […]

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Unwanted Guest

During a recent conversation, my daughter told me that many of my recent postings were too dark and depressing, and she asked me lovingly to “knock it off”.  It bothers her to know I am so sad.  Initially, I thought she was right.  Perhaps I needed to balance out the darkness with more light. Then […]

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Celebrating Life

In our family, we have long spoken about what type of funeral we each want, and how we would like our final goodbyes to be.  After attending many events that were too somber and mournful, with not enough laughter and remembrance of the better times, we spoke of honoring a life, rather than mourning a […]

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Toxic People

The last few weeks have been highly emotional ones and I’ve had no time at all to blog. My husband’s Celebration of Life service was this past weekend and I spent days working on a photo slideshow and a tribute speech. As the memories surfaced, I filed them away, my intention to come back after […]

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